Pain
****(My posts don't have any kind of order or anything to them... they are just me writing down my thoughts when I have them)****
So tonight, I realized that the pain of something never completely goes away. It's kinda like an earthquake. Something will blow up, plans will fall through, people will break your heart. And there is pain. Sometime a little, sometimes a lot. Regardless, pain is pain. But it goes away for a bit. You are surrounded by friends and family, they love, support and encourage you. You feel happy. The pain becomes dormant, like earthquakes do. Then one day, for no reason at all, or sometimes for every reason in the world, the earthquake will explode. The pain will come flooding back. Memories, heartaches, thoughts... they all come in one big explosion. It hurts like crazy, you don't know whether to be angry or cry. It can be something as simple as seeing a picture, hearing a sound or smelling a smell. Anything could trigger that pain. And what do you do when that pain hits? I haven't quite figured out a perfect solution that helps take it away when we want or how we want... but I do know that having some quite time to yourself, music, prayer. It all adds up and helps put that pain back on the shelf for a little while.
All that to say that while you can feel happy, and live life to the fullest, you never fully get rid of the pain that comes with being hurt or betrayed. I learned that lesson tonight, probably about 20 minutes ago.
You just have to endure it while it lasts and put on your big girl boots for when it comes again.
So tonight, I realized that the pain of something never completely goes away. It's kinda like an earthquake. Something will blow up, plans will fall through, people will break your heart. And there is pain. Sometime a little, sometimes a lot. Regardless, pain is pain. But it goes away for a bit. You are surrounded by friends and family, they love, support and encourage you. You feel happy. The pain becomes dormant, like earthquakes do. Then one day, for no reason at all, or sometimes for every reason in the world, the earthquake will explode. The pain will come flooding back. Memories, heartaches, thoughts... they all come in one big explosion. It hurts like crazy, you don't know whether to be angry or cry. It can be something as simple as seeing a picture, hearing a sound or smelling a smell. Anything could trigger that pain. And what do you do when that pain hits? I haven't quite figured out a perfect solution that helps take it away when we want or how we want... but I do know that having some quite time to yourself, music, prayer. It all adds up and helps put that pain back on the shelf for a little while.
All that to say that while you can feel happy, and live life to the fullest, you never fully get rid of the pain that comes with being hurt or betrayed. I learned that lesson tonight, probably about 20 minutes ago.
You just have to endure it while it lasts and put on your big girl boots for when it comes again.
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